Thought For The Day

Posted: January 11, 2014 in Foolishness

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I wish I had a thought for the day.  Just one.  No more.  Problem is I have thoughts all the time.  Some of them I even remember, but most just turn to dust in my mind.  Which goes to show just how profound all of em are when ya forget 99% of what ya thought.

Wouldn’t it be cool to go around all day with one predominant thought filling your mind?  Something like: Being thankful;  lovingkindness; Being selfless.  It would sure as hell be better than dwelling on how the Middle Class is getting screwed, or what Kim Karashian is up to next.


Slippin’ In

Posted: January 9, 2014 in Flat-0ut Bullshit

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Okay…this is just what I was trying to avoid when I stopped doing my “Hansi” blog.  See, I drew the above ink drawing while in my “Hansi” phase, and colored it in the other night while in my “Blithering Idiot” phase.  And like a true fucking idiot, I slipped back into what I was trying to get out of.  People who’ve done a shit-load of drugs or abused alcohol would call it a ‘relapse’.

Well sure as shit, I relapsed into my old Hansi mode and drew more of the same ol’ shit.  Sounds bad, but you know what?  Relapse is just doing a behavior that you’ve become comfortable with and comes easily.  So it’s not necessarily a bad thing, unless your life is going down the tubes because of it.  Then you have a little “problem area”.

So now…being in full relapse mode.  When I was a probation officer, I met a lot of people who were really fucked-up, whose problem areas were quite expansive.  Addicts and alcoholics, wife beaters, rapists and child molesters.  My favorite was Mr LaPeep.  A real “Chester the Molester”, he was the ultimate stereotype of the dirty old man offering children candy.  His first conviction for ‘lewd behavior’ was in 1946!  A year before I was born [I met him early on in my career].  He was what we called a “dirt-bag”, for whom I had no qualms in recommending a return to prison.

Ah yes…the cream of the crop.  Don’t know what got me onto this.  Maybe just another joyful ode to the glory of herbal medications.

Just Let Go

Posted: January 7, 2014 in Foolishness

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This is a chaser to my “Just Say No” post of a few days ago.  If you’re doing something that burns on the way down, you sure as hell want a chaser.  Beer works good after a shot of whiskey, and if you’re doing Tequila shooters (or worse yet, they’re doing you), well you wanna make damn sure you got some salt and a slice of lemon handy.

When you’re really locked into wanting something badly, and that’s bad for you, I find it best to just stop, tune in, and see how I’m feeling.  Not the emotional ‘feeling’ of desire or whatever, but the bodily and mental sensations you’re perceiving via the five senses.  If what you’re feeling as a result of desire or craving is tension, stress and not relief, friction or uneasiness, them something is wrong.  Ya think?  If it wasn’t, I’d be at ease, content, happy and joyful.

If freedom, peace of mind and happiness is what ya want.  Maybe pursuing a certain course of action is not worth it.  Instead of resisting it (kinda like desire, but wanting something to be other than what it is): Saying No.  Maybe it would be better to “Just Let Go”.

Right now I’m listening to Led Zeppelin I.  Pretty crazy.  Not really , but a pretty good album from 1969.  What is crazy is:  I’m listening to it on vinyl (a record), and on CD at the same time. Well not exactly the same time, but I’ve got them queued up together, and am switching between inputs on my tuner-amp, checking to see if there really is a difference between analogue (records) and digital (CD) recordings.

Everybody threw out their old records when CDs came out.  Who wanted to listen to a bunch of scratchy records when ya could have a much cleaner sound with CDs.  I did, like a true idiot, but am now busily collecting all the vinyl I had during the 60’s and 70’s.  I got a very nice, clean copy of Led Zeppelin I.  Sweet.  And you know what?  There is a difference in sound quality.  Analogue is less harsh, warmer and has more ‘depth’ than a digital recording.  Sounds great.  Especially if ya still have a turn-table to play it on.

If you have any old vinyl laying around, don’t throw em out.  Listen to them.  I’m gonna put on the Beatles Rubber Soul.  See ya later.

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Just Say No

Posted: December 31, 2013 in Foolishness

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“Just say no”.  Famous words courtesy of Nancy Reagan, wife of conservative god and President of the United States Ronald Reagan.  That was her solution to winning ‘The War On Drugs’  If someone offers you some drugs, well all ya gotta do is just say, “No thank you”.  Pretty easy…for anybody who hasn’t ever touched drugs and would never think of using them.  But, for those who’ve said, “What the fuck, I’ll give it a try”.  That’s a different story altogether.  Because drugs make ya feel good, and everybody wants to feel good.  And everything anyone does is to make them feel good, or ultimately feel good.

Anyway, War On Drugs rant notwithstanding, have you ever wanted something, but knew it was really bad for you and could have disastrous consequences should ya do it?  But still, knowing the downside, want to pursue it anyway?  Going so far as to rationalize it away, thinking, “Maybe once or…possibly twice, what would be the harm?  I’d sure be nice”.  Maybe it’s all about risk and reward.  The short-term reward, by far out-weighing the longer term risks.

That’s when the old internal dialogue, that constant debate you’re having with yourself, goes totally ape-shit: clear rational thought being met with,”But I still wanna do it”.  “And I wanna do it cause I’ll never be satisfied, or have any rest until my graving is met.”  At that point you’re totally delusional, no longer give a shit about anyone else, let alone the effects it may have on them, and just say,”To hell with it”, and do it anyway.

Problem is, once you take a leap off of that cliff, the end results are often times not that satisfying and ya wonder what the hell ya did.  Boy, if that ever happens to me, I’m gonna remember old Nancy Reagan, and Just Say No!

Nothing To Say

Posted: December 28, 2013 in Flat-0ut Bullshit

If ya have nothing to say.  Don’t write about it!  Don’t proclaim to the world that you’ve come up short (once again).  And don’t go tryin’ to solicit a pity-party just because you’re runnin’ on empty.  Nobody wants to read about nothing.

That’s all I got to say.

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Waiting For A Sign

Posted: December 25, 2013 in Foolishness

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Everybody is waiting for a sign.  An indicator which announces what is about to come.  Jesus said he’d come back, and that there’d be plenty of signs announcing The End.  I haven’t seen any yet.  Maybe because there’s no end to all the signs plastered all over the place. I’m not gonna worry about it too much, until the signs He spoke of  are on billboards.